Drifting (2020) teaser
narration provided by Veda IndianGirl ASMR
An overnight train takes us out of the station. The rhythmic pulsing provides the perfunctory caresses that I desire, yet the only joy to be found is in the young child who is fascinated by us. She comes by and pulls back the curtain, desperate to glance at us. What a charming child. What a comforting smile.
Drifting is an interactive installation with a video art piece, activated by a pressure sensor, serving as the focal point. The piece isolates the viewer from the world in which they were previously; by climbing into the sleeper bunk and closing the curtains, the viewer is shut off from the rest of the world, alone with their thoughts and the passing lights. Though this piece is the physical manifestation of grief, it is not sorrow nor sympathy I intend to invoke in the viewer but to have them drift along through this journey.
It is fascinating to have recreated an experience during which I imagined myself as emotionally and mentally vacant-- yet in representation became so full. The common thread in my work is rooted in memories of intimate moments that often aren’t shared with the world. These very intense and personal moments are so important as they are the fabric that forms us into the individuals that we are. It is these moments that I want to explore and allow others to experience. Though this piece emanated from an excruciating personal experience, I don’t believe it should exist solely as a passing phenomenon, but rather for this piece to serve as a mirror to an intensely vulnerable moment where, amidst all of the chaos, tranquility was born.
I remember someone whispering, “It is amazing that we don’t hold funerals for ourselves. The person you were no longer exists. We will forever be changed by this, yet why do we not grieve for the person we used to be.” The further we go, light becomes scarce- we are drifting into eternal night, as did he.
Drifting (2020) documentation provided by Stefani Jade Photography